December 2011
I just wanted you to love me.
This isnt the kid I fell in love with.
You’ve turned in to such a tool
I meant nothing to you, you proved it to me today.
I’m still crying.
2011 was the year that broke me.
Maybe if I sleep I'll forget.
I hate what you put me through..
You put me through hell, and still chose her over me.. How do you think that makes me feel. Even though you BEG me to stay and tell me I’m leaving you lonely and cold. If you really loved me, none of this ever would have happened. I would never received those messages. You know, if you’d just admit to it. There wouldn’t be a problem. But I was never worth the truth. Not to you...
It's hard to believe its over.
But maybe now I’ll stop getting hurt. Maybe now I’ll find someone who doesn’t play games. Someone who will make sure I’m there one and only. For good.
“What you must understand about me
is that I’m a deeply unhappy person.”
– looking for Alaska (via theheartwanders)
Just go home and forget about me
It’s better if you do… You can find a better girl there anyways
I think that was the end of us
:/
My best friend
Is a stuffed duck that I sleep with.
At least it listens to me and doesn’t complain. Let’s me cry into it. And squeeze it as tight as I want at night. Sounds like a great best friend to me.. My life honestly sucks
I'm such a mess
Fuck my life
I guess second best is all I will know
I hope for too much.
If you can't do anything at all
Just be faithful. That’s the one thing everyone wants.
I can't go back into that stage
But everyone’s abandoning me and I just want one person to stay in my life and tell me it’s going tone okay.
My life is secretly falling apart.
But for the last few weeks, I’ve been hiding it and only focusing on trying to be happy. It’s just getting worse though and I have no one to talk to.
I know that I'm not going to get the number one...
It really sucks because that’s the thing I want the most. I can’t force it though. But what the song says is true… :/ it’s not something expensive my mommy and daddy can’t buy it for me. I had it once and I want it back. That’s all I want for Christmas.
One morning,
I just want to wake up to a long text from you.
telling me that you love me and that you don’t want me to move on.
that you want me to stay by your side until you’re ready for a relationship again.
that I will be your only one until then though.
I want you to just make me feel special and tell me that you want me back.
idk. I know it’ll never happen and you’ll probably...
I lost the best thing I had.
I hate myself for it :/
I miss
Screaming and fighting and kissing in the rain, it’s 2am and I’m cursing your name, so in love that we acted insane and that’s the way I loved you.
Remember December
